Dexter Alvaro Ozora

This is my first mother’s day since I became a mother. Hearing some acknowledgment from the actresses to their mom in infotainment this morning, I think I’m not a good daughter, not a good mom though. Become a mother isn’t easy. Everybody knows that and I’m thinking am I really ready to be a mom? but anyway, I am now. Ready or not, I have to be ready.

My boy is sleeping right now. He just went to doctor for imunisasi BCG and Hepatitis B(2) last Wednesday. His weight is 5 kg now! gained 1.5 kg in 1 month. No wonder I feel he’s so heavy when I carry him. He’s becoming more and more like his dad now. Everyone who saw him said that. He always sleeps in the afternoon and awake at night. I have to follow his time then.

Since I drink Cranberry drink, my ASI became a little bit much more. But, I think since I drank that juice, my period isn’t stop until now. Nevertheless, tomorrow is 40 days post laboring. I wonder is it really because of that juice?

Anyway, Christmas is in front of our eyes. Happy Christmas to all of you! I do hope through this Christmas, we become more faithful to God. Long time never go to church. I hope I can go this Christmas together with Dexter to church.

Yunus and I planned to move to my parents house on new year. So, we need to clean our room and set up everything during this holiday. Well, a lot of things to be done before New year. Hope everything will be OK!

Thanks banget buat temen2 yg udah comments di post sebelumnya. Buat yg mau liat foto nya ada di http://clematis.blogs.friendster.com/photos/dexter

Beberapa hari ini, I bener2 males banget ngapa2 in.. kerjaan nya cuma di depan Laptop ama di atas ranjang. Malem ga bisa tidur, tidur kalo dah jam 7 pagi, abis Dexter nyusu.. bangun2 jam 11 siang… abis itu lunch, then sleep again. gila ya gw?? Kemaren pas gw bangun ternyata Dexter udah dimandiin, gw udah disiapin sarapan sama mertua. Gw nya teler.. lemes banget.

Masalahnya, 2 malem belakangan ini si Dexter sih tidur setelah nyusu.. tapi dia tidur nya tengkurep.. gw jadi takut sendiri. Semalem gw bener2 liat dia bisa ngangkat kepala nya dan bolak-balik in kepala ke kanan-kiri.. gw kan jadi parno, kalo nanti dia kecapean trus pas angkat kepala jatoh nya di tengah??? ntar ketutup idung nya.. jadi gw jagain terus sepanjang malem.

Ngeliatin dia tidur, gw jadi bisa ketawa sendiri. Lucu banget and rasanya sayang banget.. dulu, gw selalu liatin Yunus tidur, dan punya perasaan yg sama kayak Dexter skr.. tapi skr dah ga pernah lagi perhatiin si Yunus.. kasian juga dia. merasa terabaikan. Tapi dia sendiri juga udah jarang merhatiin gw.. kita berdua memang lebih menaruh perhatian ama Dexter. Kadang malah suka rebutan cium si Dexter.. hehe. Gw sih thanks God banget punya suami kayak dia. Kalo dia ada di rumah, urusan Dexter pasti beres sama dia, kecuali nete - in aja. ga tau kenapa, Dexter kalo digendong dia pasti anteng banget.. mgkn memang karna sejak di kandungan si Yunus sering ngajak dia ngomong, nyanyiin dia, etc.. bagus deh.

Gw udah ga sabar nunggu next week… Dexter 1 month old. Heran yah, padahal tgl 10 kan wedding anniversary gw, tgl 10 Yunus juga birthday, tgl 11 gw yg birthday, tapi kenapa gw malah ga sabar nungguin tgl 13… hehe. Lucu aja

Kemaren gw liat jaitan gw udah mulai agak rapihan.. dah ga terlalu biru2 bekas anti keloid nya. Mudah2an ga keloid deh. Ntar tgl 27 disuruh balik ke dokter ganteng lagi sih.. (dr. Tjien Ronny, Sp.og). Setelah tgl itu I’ll be missing him for so long deh.. hehehe. Masa gw mau hamil lagi??? Ga lah!! Not in the short time lah. Kam siaa..!!! (kalo ga accident =p)

Hi hi… wuihh, ga terasa ternyata Dexter now has been 3 weeks … gw udah harus pesen2 kue one month dah..

Finally, after 9 months been waited, Dexter is out! 13 November 2006 is a really memorable day. Pertama kali nya gw dibelek2.. pertama kali nya gw di infus, pertama kali nya gw ngelahirin anak.. ouw mann… pengalaman tak terlupakan deh.. gw masih inget details nya waktu sebelom operasi caesar sampe setelahnya..

Well, this is the story…

ceritanya biasanya kan kalo malem gw suka ngajak ngomong si Dexter, kasih dia denger lagu, denger gw nyanyi, hehehe.. dan biasanya he gave response. but, starting saturday night, he was not so active as usual… but I still tried to think positively that he was OK… that night I was so tired, but I couldn’t even close my eyes… and keep waiting until my baby’s moving actively. Unfortunately, he didn’t.. he only made a slow movement. That also happened on the next day…

Monday early morning, 2 am.. I woke my husband up, and asked him to play with the baby inside.. but baby was not response also.. I was so stressful and couldn’t sleep at all… we decided to go to the doctor in the morning. Doctor said the baby’s still OK.. but to make sure he asked me to have CTG. The result of CTG was out, and it was not good. I went back to the doctor and decided to have caesar at 1.30 pm that day. Crazy… I went back home, get all my stuffs and picked up my mommies..

After done all the preparations, finally 1.45 pm they started the operations. I didn’t know when the doctor started to open my tummy.. I was asleep.. I couldn’t do anything and was so suffer… then finally I heard a baby’s crying.. but I still dont realise that was my first baby’s cry… I was still asleep… until a doctor awaked me.. and showed the baby to me.. I just said.. “ohh… then sleep again” the nurse said I can continue my sleep.. hehe.. then I saw the clock… it was 2.45 pm .. the doctor has finished mending my tummy.. they cleaned me up, and transferred me to the room. I was shivering.. so cold..

And now.. Dexter has been 3 weeks… waktu kemaren 2 minggu, dia udah bisa tengkurep sendiri.. gw aja sampe bingung.. semalem, dia bener2 tidur tengkurep.. kalo gw balikin pasti nangis, n maunya tengkurep.. I saw he lifted his head up.. and turn it to the right and left.. gw sampe heran sendiri.. dan gw yg ga bisa tidur jadinya..

Sometimes gw merasa, Dexter ngerti kalo gw ngomong… kalo dia lagi tidur trus tiba2 dia nangis, gw selalu panggil dia honey.. trus dia psti berenti.. tapi kalo lagi laper mah, jangan berharap dia berenti nangis.. yg ada malah tambah teriak2..

He was so cute.. and I love him so much..